I have been observing an interesting occurrence in my life: I will often conclude that I should do something or try something after a long time of avoiding it. Then, that thing turns out to be what I should have been doing all along or I should have done when it first became apparent to me.
Why am I like this?
It’s one of those funny-not-funny sort of things. In hindsight, I wish I had taken the nudged-actions sooner, AND, I recognize that my mindset was not where it needed to be until it was.
To me, this has a humbling effect. I usually have exhausted my “figuring stuff out” capabilities before I am open to doing the things that I have been resisting. Then, life rolls smoothly until I starting figuring again and create resistance to what actually would keep me flowing along in the way that I enjoy flowing along.
I truly make things harder than they need to be sometimes.
After writing that, my mind automatically goes into trying to figure out to reduce my “stubborn” moments.
The thing is, I don’t think this is something for me to figure out. I think it is something to let go of – to surrender to.
The statement “thy will be done” is becoming my mantra more and more often. It is freeing in that it reminds me that I don’t have to figure everything out and I can get to a place of being humble more quickly. It is actually a refreshing position to operate from.
So, not only am I giving any stress or anxiety (or whatever) to God, but I am doing my best to allow whatever my part is in the divine plan to unfold without trying to assert what I think my part is.
That is all I got for this week, but it is a biggie. If you know, you know.