I have been sitting with several realizations this week. The practice of saying “Thy Will Be Done” and not thinking about what I want to achieve has been causing some shifts in my life.
I have also noticed over the past few weeks that I have begun to question some of my daily habits and things that I have believed for a while. It has helped me remove several more layers of complication I had added to my life.
Whew.
I have often been nudged towards inner work, but I thought that was a work of personal discipline to clear or program myself. This inner work was often done with the idea that it would help me work towards my goals or cause me to be a better person or magnetize me towards my life vision (that I dutifully wrote out and over and over for a period of time in my life).
Now, I’m confronted with a simple truth. None of it was needed. And, it was opening doors to negative encounters. I was misled by the appearance of self-help and the potential to help others. It is quite insidious. The more you get entangled in the world of doing things yourself, the more distorted things get. Your “educated” mind starts to consider reality in more complex terms than what is truly is.
I’m quite clear now that all I need is God and Jesus and to allow God to work through me. Everything else takes care of itself. Honestly, it is such a relief.
I’m not going to beat myself up for going off path. I’m sort of appreciative of the lessons and how I can see how insidious the enemy is. Most of us are taught to see blatant evil and reject it. I wasn’t expecting to be taken off course under the pretense of what I thought was growing spirtually.
I suppose I was fortunate. While I dipped my toes in a lot of things that seemingly empowered me, I never went too far in any direction before getting distracted or losing interest.
Here’s a quick list (there may be more I’m not thinking about, but these stand out):
- Self-hypnosis and talking to “guides”
- I became a Reiki II practitioner. I only practiced on a fellow student and a couple other people, though. I don’t know why I lost interest, but I did (maybe divine influence?).
- Kriya yoga
- I had a deck of tarot cards that I pulled out maybe one or twice every couple years. I had to look up the meaning of the cards in a book each time. I just threw them away.
- I have several cool stones and crystals. I never took the time to learn and remember what they “healed” or helped with. I didn’t use them to do any kind of “work” because I think I had a sense that it was weird and maybe not the best ever. For now, I am keeping them because they make a nice rock collection.
- Various meditations that focused on me instead of God
- Being predominantly concerned with self-expression over allowing the divine plan to express itself through me
The thing is, most of the above can help you in your life. But, they are all about our individual wills. Each of us gets to make a choice. Your will or God’s will.
I choose God.
This past week I have been contemplating how this changes my life at the moment. For one, I feel like I have to make a practice of being present to God more and enhancing my ability to discern His will. For another, I am already seeing that what I create may change.
It’s kinda fun. I’m interested to see what God has in store for me.
Let’s go…