Whew. April? Gone. Vanished. Vaporized into a cloud of productivity and (mildly itchy) yardwork.
Here’s a peek at what filled the days:
Spent hours upon hours in online classes
Revamped my website—consolidated, streamlined, and now everything’s in one place
Took a staycation with my husband where we tackled house projects like champs (my father-in-law flew in to help with his mighty expertise)
House Projects Completed
o Took down old, starting-to-rot back deck to reveal nice brick steps underneath.
o Replaced four light fixtures and a ceiling fan inside the house
o We had an electrician add an outside outlet at the back of the house (strangely, we didn’t have one – it is an older house, though). He also added some GFL outlets in the kitchen and bathroom. We feel so much safer now!
o We installed a new range hood. So shiny, so nice.
o We added handrails to the steps at our side door and back door.
o Our neighbors let us cut down a dead tree in their yard that looked like it was going to fall over our fence. It was covered in all the vines: poison ivy, Virginia creeper, greenbriers. Thankfully, I only got a little poison ivy on my forearm! It’s still a bit itchy…
o Did some other landscaping and yard cleanup.
o Cleaned out the dryer vent.
o Had the AC maintenance guy do the annual service.
o Added an 8-ft vinyl fence panel in the space between our chainlink fence and the house (it was originally where the edge of the deck was and we needed to close it off so our dog woudn’t take his crusade against squirrels out into the neighborhood.
o Replaced an old toilet seat
o Installed a pull-up bar
We also picked strawberries at a local farm, played games, went out to some local shops, and enjoyed making and eating good food together.
But…
In the midst of all this growing and improvement, I lost some of the structures I had in place to keep various writing and art projects moving along. I’ve neglected posting anything for weeks.
I suppose sometimes life is like that.
A Seasonal Rhythm?
I had a thought over the past few weeks that it would be cool to mirror my life and workload to nature.
Over winter, I could write and work on creative projects with the intent of bringing them into the world during the spring.
I could shift to light creative projects in summer and fall with a focus on making sales and preparing for the upcoming winter.
I would also use the spring and summer to read and learn as much as possible because I love how that feeds my brain and creativity.
I’m not sure how feasible this idea is, but it might be worth exploring.
Back to the Writing
For now, I’m reviewing my project list and making a new plan for the rest of the year. I’m also getting back into the writing groove.
I have been working out some plot points the past couple of months for the “The AI Anomaly.” I have also been struggling with how I want to tell this story. I think it has to maintain some similarity to “The Resurrection Incident,” but mayhap there is enough wiggle room to shift the format in a way that makes it fun for me to write and, hopefully, for the reader to read.
I still love the story and am excited to get it out in the world. Time to make it happen.
I’ve been working on my next book, The AI Anomaly, and developing the story outline has been really stretching my ideas about humanity’s potential for evolution and what’s next.
My exploratory morning pages have churned out things that I didn’t even know were nesting in my inner workings.
This is a good place to be. I feel like I am on the right track with my habits and goals and I’m excited about how the story is growing.
“The Calm Before the Storm”
I had a fleeting thought this morning that I have felt this way before and then chaos ensued and I got knocked down or distracted or something got in the way of my progress. I thought, “Maybe this is the calm before the storm.”
I have thought that many times before.
I have had an expectation in the past of something negative balancing out my good. This train of thought presents a life where I am at the mercy of things happening to me and around me to determine how I feel about life at the moment.
Calm as a Choice
Even though that programming continues to pop up and test me, I know better. I have had enough experience to understand that I am in control of how I feel in any situation even if I am not in control of the situation.
This self-control is the calm. I enjoy this quiet place within myself. Focus and productivity grow out of it.
I’m not always perfect at maintaining my calm, but I have been working on daily habits to help me stay present to it.
It is a work in progress that I am happy to continue.
I am embracing the calm as my normal and there is no storm unless I allow it.
Looking back, last year was an exploration of newly found freedom. I was in a flow state. I tried a bunch of things. I tested how many spinning plates I could manage at one time. I did a lot. I learned a lot. It was actually pretty awesome because it helped get really clear on what worked and didn’t, what supported my goals and what was a second or third head growing out of my creative body (nothing wrong with that, but it’s not the look I’m going for).
Clarity Over Chaos
I’m not a person that has a problem doing things. I am a person that sometimes has difficulty determining what things I should be doing – the things that would make the most difference. I expanded myself so much over the last year that it only seemed prudent to evaluate it all and make adjustments as appropriate. My past few posts have been about that and I am pleased with the progress.
When I look at all the things I have created this past year, I remember how much fun I had in doing so. However, I can also see that if I had framed a lot of it towards my main life goals, the framework would have been much stronger sooner and I might be further along.
Note to Self: Busy does not necessarily equate to reaching goals.
I’m not beating myself up. Just making an observation so I can be more efficient going forward.
Writing, With Intention
When I’m planning a book, other than the story idea itself, one of the first things I hone in on is the theme. Once I have that established, I use that as a filter for making other story decisions.
As I prepare to work on my next few books, I’m thinking about things differently. I feel like my last three books were rushed along faster than they needed to be. It was almost as if the getting it done was the most important part. I’m proud of what I accomplished, but a bit more planning would have helped me market them better.
Being in an ebb state now and with a clear purpose is showing me where I need to prepare my structures to hold and support/guide me when I’m back into flow and wanting to spill all over everywhere. It’s a balancing act. I find that I have to be cautious to not cut out too much when I’m ebbing because most things can just be tweaked to be aligned with what I want.
A Season of Restructuring
I expect many creatives experience this. I think we have to go through overflow after overflow to learn and grow and decide what really enlivens and inspires us.
I’m restructuring my day and month and year and general project plans in ways that I expect will support me. If a system breaks along the way, I’ll just fix it or replace it with something better.
Going forward, I’m all about my bespoke busy-britches!
I can’t remember where I first came across the following quote (and a quick search online didn’t help me either), but it had a big impact on my thinking:
“If you see something you think someone should do something about, you’re just as much someone as anybody else.”
It points to the fact that if we don’t like something we should just do something about it. It is a little annoying because sometimes I just want to complain about stuff. Ha!
The Writer Room Ripple Effect
A similar resistance showed up for me this past week when I was gaining more clarity around how I wanted to proceed creatively. In my last post, I mentioned that I shifted my room/office to be more expressive of my writerly-ness.
That, in turn, caused my mind to increase its focus as well. I could see that there were other areas in my life (especially online) where I had the same sort of convolutedness as I saw in my room pre-adjustment.
When Action Is the Answer (Even If You’d Rather Write)
I could also see that it would take quite a bit of work to get it adjusted (such as rebuilding/reorganizing websites and such) – time that would be taken away from constructing the books currently in my creative pipeline. I mulled it over longer than I should have.
I realized I had to take action, though, because I could see that taking care of these things now would allow me to grow more unfettered in the future. It would be better to get it all more closely aligned with my writerly-ness now than confuse people when I changed up stuff later (because change would be inevitable).
So, that’s what I’ve been doing these past few days. Thankfully, it has been going better than I expected. I still have work to do, but I know I am heading in the right direction.
The benefits of heading in the right direction is the gift of new book ideas popping up in my mind like perfect little saplings in a garden. Gotta continue keeping the weeds managed. Gotta get back to work…
I remember back in late 2023, I was talking to my Write on Purpose Coach, W. Bradford Swift, when I became clear that while I often talked about writing, I hadn’t made it a dominant part of my life.
On our video chats, I noticed that Coach Brad had a bookshelf full of his books behind him. In contrast, the shelf behind my desk held various things that I made and my books were stashed away in a cubby out of sight. Nothing wrong with that except that I wanted writing to be a dominant part of my life and my environment was not reflecting that.
A shift was in order.
Becoming the Writer (Visibly)
Inspired by uncovering my purpose in writing (to write enjoyable stories that cause young readers to imagine and experience new and expansive ideas), I took on becoming the person that would fulfill that purpose. I wanted anyone that looked at my desk area and shelf to know that I was a writer.
At the time, I only had two books published, “The Secret in Bladham Wood” and “Hope & Josie Go to the Prom” (co-written with a friend of mine). They didn’t take up much room on my shelf, so I took a few spare copies of my Bladham novel and covered them with mock-covers of books that I had already started and wanted to finish.
I couldn’t help but notice them every time I walked over to my desk and seeing them always made me smile. It helped me want to finish them even more.
That was late 2023, and now in early 2025, I have completed and published three of those books: “The Resurrection Incident”, “Sentenced”, and “Goddess Game.” (The illustrated stories have been written and storyboarded, but sidelined for the moment).
The Power of Visual Identity
It feels like quite an accomplishment as I had started them all around 2012-13 and there was no completion in sight.
I highly recommend a coach if you’re having trouble seeing why and how you’re holding yourself back.
Now that I have all that experience under my belt and new ideas, I’m not as intimidated as I once was to start and actually finish a book. I mean, I still have moments like “I have no idea where this is even going, how can I commit to finishing it!”, but then I recalibrate back to the person with a purpose, and I get on with it. (I don’t mean to make that sound super easy. I definitely still squirm a bit before I get back to work.)
Shifting Space, Shifting Self
Since my husband and I moved last year, I’ve been writing and I’ve also become a Sheila of multiple trades. My room/office has been filled with many wonderful supplies and tools.
I love having access to all these things AND I realized this past week that it did not reflect my writerly-ness.
When we first moved in, I had thought I might have a corner of the room dedicated to cozy reading or even meditation. Instead, in last year’s burst of exploratory growth, every nook and cranny was filled with “making things.”
A room is a bit more challenging than shifting around a bookshelf, but I took on rearranging it to be more aligned with where I want to be in life. The “making things” have been organized and stuffed into the closet (I will be spending time at a later date crafting some of my supplies down to a more manageable amount).
The end result: I have a corner cleared and ready for a comfy chair and blanket.
The Creative Center
The change feels right.
It feels aligned with my spirit, which wants to do everything (for sure), but mostly wants to write stories and enjoy stories.
That has to be the centerpiece. I’ll fit the rest in around that. 😊
For 2023 and 2024, I was finishing up writing a book at the end of the year. For 2023, the book was “The Resurrection Incident.” This year, I completed “Goddess Game.” It’s kinda cool that I have done that two years in a row, but I’m thinking I would prefer to use the last quarter of the year in future to outline and plan book projects for the upcoming year and maybe focus on direct sales. Might be a sweet experiment for next year!
Year-End Reflections & Routines
I know it’s cliché, but I do enjoy a fine rumination at the end of the year, reflecting on what worked and didn’t and making those glorious plans for the future. It’s a little dangerous and I can easily stay in the thrill of imagining all the things and forget to shift into the necessary doing.
I’ve learned a lot in 2024 about how I create, how to organize my time to get projects done, and the habits I can continue to tweak to help me achieve my goals consistently and with more energy to carry over to the next project.
2025: Superpowers Activated
For 2025, I feel like I am going into the new year with superpowers activated. I still have much to learn (and won’t I always?), but I have a confidence that I have not experienced before.
I’m focused on making life better and better and expressing that in the various ways that I enjoy: writing, drawing, crafting, music
It seems like in the past I didn’t think I could dare allow myself to feel capable if I wasn’t perfect at something. Now I know life is always an ongoing journey and I will get better at whatever I focus on. And that’s the same for all of us, which is so very cool.
